Intense, unrelenting, and excruciating pain, that is.
And at this point, I want to hook myself up to an IV full of pain meds and just sleep. Because I can't sleep. Well, not too long at a time, anyway. Actually, I can barely lay down because it hurts too much. The only position that doesn't cause a ton of pain is sitting straight up in a chair and I haven't found a way to sleep in that position yet!
I worry about the amount of Lortab I'm taking, but I can't help it. I tried waiting until the pain became too much and then taking it but I've found taking it on a scheduled basis keeps the medicine in my system and keeps the edge off the pain.
I take one at lunch but I try not to take it at work otherwise. But I have to take something or else I'd get nothing done at work for the pain!
Let's not even start on how this is affecting my attitude and general good spirits.
Right now I'm having a hard time seeing the light at the end of the tunnel and even then with the luck I'm having, it's probably a freight train bearing down on me!
I must say that my family has been awesome through this. I have a lot of people who wonder why I live with my parents and why Bethany and I don't move out on our own. Well, this is one reason. When I'm having a bad night, I don't have to worry about Bethany. Supper is usually ready when I get home and I don't have to worry about cooking. Although I try to help around the house, when I can't move it's impossible but no one fusses at me.
So, things could be worse, and I'm trying to keep positive. Just need a pity party once in a while to remind myself of how much I do have!
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